Baby showers to plan, cribs and nursery items to purchase, little onesies to buy, names to consider. It was a whirlwind of excitement and emotions!
However, on Wednesday, September 23rd, our rollercoaster ride of emotions began.
Here's what I wrote on our blog:
We just got a call from our adoption agency. Our birth mother has changed her mind. So it looks like no little baby boy bastian next month.
Please keep us in your prayers. I'm having a pretty rough time right now.
That day and night were very rough for us. We went through all of the emotions you can imagine - shock, anger, hurt, frustration, sadness and then, finally acceptance and sorrow. However, we also, even though we couldn't explain it, felt an immense amount of peace that night, in the midst of it all. We felt like it would be "soon" and we would have our baby. That didn't make the mourning any easier, though.
That night, before I went to bed, I opened up a book and my eyes fell directly to these words:
"The storm fronts that come into our lives will not last forever. We can surmount the drifts of difficulties and we can hold out if we maintain our perspective and faith ... Just as we know there is a sun just beyond today's cloud cover, so we must not doubt the continued, watchful, and tutoring presence of The Son in spite of the stormy seasons in our lives." ~Neal A. Maxwell
The next morning, I awoke rejuvenated and the thought, or rather, the scripture, came into my mind, "Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning." ~Psalm 30:5
Just then, we got a phone call. A call that would be life-altering. It was from our adoption agency. They had a baby for us! That day! Already born (two days earlier) in state, and the birth mother was going to sign the paperwork and make it legal TODAY! Were we interested??!
Here's your answer ... written on our blog just a few hours later ...
Well, what can I say? Miracles never cease! And God works in mysterious ways ...
At about 10:30 this morning, we got a phone call from our adoption agency saying that they had a baby boy that was born on Tuesday and the birth mother wanted to sign away her rights today.
We quickly went to our agency, signed some paperwork and then went to the hospital to meet the birth mother. She is a darling girl and we fell in love with her and her brave decision. She signed away her rights to us as this baby's parents at about 1:00 pm. We then drove to another hospital, where the baby is in the NICU and held our little baby boy for the first time!
Right now we couldn't be more shocked, excited, happy, grateful, grateful, grateful or GRATEFUL!!! Thanks for all the prayers, love and support!
Everything is a whirlwind right now - crazy emotions and we're really busy trying to notify people. So please don't mind me if I don't post for a couple of days. We'll be in the NICU for awhile too :)
That pretty much gets you caught up to date. Almost. And I'll try and keep this thing updated more often.
I can't believe the turn of events our lives have taken in the past year. I need to keep a "gratitude journal" and perhaps this blog can serve as that purpose. We shall see. All I know is that I definitely have enough "material" to fill 10 gratitude journals right now! :)
